Fathers be good to your daughters

Remember that John Mayer song?

Well, in my case, it's the other way round.

I don't think it's easy for someone to be a dad. What more if the fatherly duties was disrupted by inevitable marital problems.

My relationship with my daddy is an awkward one. We've been apart for several years. From Standard 3 to Form 4...you do the maths. I resent the fact that we were once apart. That left a mark to our relationship. We still see each other occasionally. We'd go out for lunches or dinners or he'd come to my place to see his adorable grandson. (he was ecstatic when he knew that I was having a boy. I remembered clearly when he held Adel in his arms for the first time, he said "Finally!").  But even that does not make up for the lost of years.

I get envious seeing my cousins with their dads. Though they aren't really closely knitted to each other but at least it's not awkward. Of course I would want to make it up to him. After all, it was not his fault that things had to turn out the way it was. I'm trying hard to make amends with all the initiatives in planning family gatherings. But even that is not sufficient. Not in my eyes, anyway.

He's not getting any younger. I hope I still have time to make it up to him, InsyaAllah.

Dear Daddy,

I love you dearly and I am proud to be your daughter. I'm sorry for how things turn out in the past. But we still have now and the future. And hopefully we can make that a better one.

Love, 

Your daughter